Carry out inner darkness

Shiva said: When a moonless rainy night is not present, close eyes and find black¬ness before you. Opening eyes, see blackness. So faults disappear forever.

This is a little bit more difficult. In the previous meditation, you carry the real darkness within. In this one you carry the false out - go on carrying it. Close your eyes, feel darkness; open your eyes, and with open eyes see the darkness out. This is how you throw the inner false darkness out - go on throwing it. It will take at least three to six weeks, and then one day suddenly you will be able to carry the inner darkness out. The day you can carry the inner darkness out, you have come upon the real inner darkness. The real can be carried; the false cannot be carried.

And it is a very magical experience. If you can carry the inner darkness out, even in a lighted room you can carry it out, and a patch of darkness spreads before you. The experience is very weird, because the room is lighted. Or even in sunlight.. .if you have come to the inner darkness you can bring it out. Then a patch of darkness comes before your eyes. You can go on spreading it. Once you know that it can happen, you can have darkness, dark as the darkest night, in the full sunny day. The sun is there, but you can spread the darkness.

The darkness is always there; even while the sun is there the darkness is there. You cannot see it; it is covered by the sunlight. Once you know how to uncover it, you can uncover it.

That's the method. First feel it inside; feel it deeply so you can perceive it out. Then open the eyes suddenly and feel it out. It will take time.

And if you can bring the inner darkness outside, faults disappear forever, because if the inner dark¬ness is felt, you have become so cool, so silent, so unexcitable, that faults cannot remain with you. Remember this: faults can exist only if you are prone to be excited, if you tend to be excited. They don't exist in themselves; they exist in your capacity to get excited. Someone insults you, and you have no darkness within to absorb the insult: you become inflamed, you get angry, you get fiery, and then everything is possible.


You can be violent, you can kill, you can do what only a madman can do. Anything is possible - you are now mad. Someone praises you: you again go mad to the other extreme. All around you there are situations, and you are not capable of absorbing. Insult a buddha: he can absorb it, he can simply swallow it, digest it. Who digests that insult? An inner pool of darkness, silence. You throw anything poisoned; it is absorbed. No reaction comes out of it. Try this, and when someone insults you, just remember that you are filled with darkness, and suddenly you will feel there is no reaction. You pass through a street; you see a beautiful woman or a man - you get excited.

Feel that you are filled with darkness; suddenly the passion will disappear. You try it. This is absolutely experimental, there is no need to believe it. When you feel that you are filled with passion or desire or sex, simply remember the inner darkness. For a single moment close your eyes and feel darkness and see - the passion has disappeared, the desire is no more there. The inner darkness has absorbed it. You have become an infinite vacuum into which anything can fall and it will not return. You are now like an abyss.